White privilege, and what it really is.

No justice, no piece. “Racism isn’t getting worse, its just getting filmed” and well we tried kneeling but you said it was offensive.

Just some recent things on my timeline I feel say everything. White privilege is being able to talk back to and confront the police and not end up no longer breathing. Look on YouTube black carry vs White carry. Watch “Central Park Karen” and then talk to me about Emmitt Till. Lets talk about Dylann Roof and his burgers during questioning after shooting up a church. Or james Holmes who shot up a movie theater as just two under privlege who lived to stand trail. Someone said then did Jeffery Dahmer have white privilege (first you had to go back to serial killer to try to find a point and second watch the documentaries read the stories media describes him as attractive before they get into what he did then look up Roanoke reporter and photojournalist murder. Vestor lee Vestor lee Flanagan is described as misogynistic and other negative adjectives. Hell go back and hear about Dylann. Its the little things you start to notice Ahmaud Arbery wasn’t even stopped by police he was followed and shot over a goddamn citizens arrest just like Trevon Martin. We can’t jog, we cant buy skittles, we can’t go to a job interview we can’t reach for our wallets we can’t reach for our gun permit. We don’t get the benefit of the doubt no matter what social or economical status we hold. This current president said out of his mouth while president you know how you hold there heads when you put them in the car?, Don’t worry about people in custody hitting their heads on squad cars. Three total officers held down George Floyd you telling me a human being pinned to the ground by three while handcuffed, one of which is on his neck FOR OVER SEVEN MINUTES you can’t get your god damn knee off his neck when he’s pleading he can’t breathe? When onlookers begged that you take his pulse, when someone who witnessed said she was a nurse and offered to just take his pulse. No you kneel minutes more on his neck then drag his lifeless body to a stretcher to try to tell us he died later in the hospital (mind you he stopped moving/talking four minutes in). I’ve seen the its one bad apple not the whole tree… white privilege is having that to be able to say because wouldn’t that apple to black and brown people? Shouldn’t it be assumed that any unarmed person is definitely not a threat to armed officers? Michael Brown jr. unarmed was a threat to an officer inside a squad car (Darren Wilson) the cop in the squad car described 18yr Micheal Brown jr. as a superhuman Demon. I get fight or flight feeling every time an officer stops me. My brothers, sisters, cousins and people of color do not have the guarantee that a simple stop will not end deadly you can find clips of white folks pulled over for some infraction, or carrying automatic rifles walking neighborhoods, more recently walking with those into state buildings that have no cares in the world berate police face to face and still know they will go home and sleep peacefully. Robert Bowers shot up a synagogue and was arrested Philando Castile reached for his permit. I’m tired of being tired, tired of explaining to people that know me that I am not exempt from what happened to any of these black men when police stop me or my brother, my cousins, my father, my nephews, my close friends. This sucks and it seems to not matter how peaceful the protest, we do that wrong too. -Vonte

And all his teammates ain’t saying a thing. Stay woke -Meek Mil

(before we start please excuse what grammatical errors I may have missed I suffer from dyslexia and write out of passion for expressing opinions)

They told Kap stand up he wan play for a team but all his teammates ain’t saying a thing, Stay woke.- There are a few things that need to be said, three years ago they fired you (wrongfully in my opinion) they said you were a distraction yet let Antonio Brown the clown play until he just quit. So rightfully you sued (and boom I back you on that too not that it matters) but take the star or public figure out of the situation. Let’s say you yourself were fired from a job wrongfully, let’s say you sued and they still did not immediately take you back even go the distance with the suit and a big part of what you are fighting for is just to get that job back, you enjoyed it. still your former employer never backs down. Somehow years later without having to admit they were wrong publicly you get an opportunity to do a training workout and maybe come back yet it is still clear there is tension, its still clear they don’t want you back. Its here where something has to give its here where I jump off the wagon. Kaepernick and his team claim this wavier was excessive, what did you expect? Neither party trust’s the other how exactly would you imagine that career would go say he does get back on a team? Even if you believe it was all Kap’s doing getting the workout, foolish pride or not on the NFL’s side they will not bend or fold. I say this all to say by agreeing to the workout he got part of what he wanted wether he joins a new team or not I hop off the wagon its clear in this climate especially the NFL has a bigger problem with the first amendment peacefully being exercised then it does with domestic violence or sexual assault allegations, the NBA is siding with (would rather be silent about) china for the money and the FIFIA doesn’t pay women equally just to name a few, and no player in the game will change those industries. Without the NFL admitting wrong doing I am actually disappointed he wants to come back knowing what we know now. Pleased as I was for the announcement that he finally did get the workout many of the teams need a damn QB, but I had assumed it was finally mutual. Social injustice wins nothing from Kap going back and that is harsh to say but true he doesn’t need my backing for this as cool as it would be that he could lead a team to the playoffs or a championship they would never let him talk about anything else. Arguably he won already he got a big part of what he wanted since they fired him. – Vonte

Fuck Your Confederacy


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Everything you believe is a lie and I love it so much. Let me start by Saying as a black man I never looked far into the history of the confederacy because.. “I’m black.” But this new to me, information is pure gold.

Did you know your revered General Robert E. Lee shortly after he lost to the north and accepted a job at a university he took and oath to henceforth support the US Constitution and he advised fellow followers to do the same? I’m reading he’d said the confederate flag is a flag of treason and a symbol he wanted to forget. I’ve always said that flag is not American if you’ve read my politically charged posts you know how I feel but to learn that all you heritage not history folk were just sharing what you wanted to believe is just so fulfilling, excuse the super vulgar expression (I busted a nut) everything you believe is a lie and to add insult to injury these statues you fight to keep up weren’t even erected till the 1960’s at least one hundred years later, (theory or not) to intimidate people of color and others they opposed. Your heritage belongs in a museum not on our streets and in our schools. Also to answer President Donald Trump “should we take down Lincoln and other statues?” Well one thing we can say for sure they weren’t frauds erected to scare a people so nah they can stay Mr. Trump.

Fuck your confederacy and your beliefs you treasonous assholes and you get out of America, this ain’t yours, never was I laugh at your history, yours is the only one not real. -Vonte

You people are the most crying-ist needy ass people

(before we start please excuse what grammatical errors I may have missed I suffer from dyslexia)

Yes “you people” you confederate flag sympathizers are the most hypocritical assholes walking the United States. You will (some of you even to other people’s faces) but you sit there and complain that Latinos speak Spanish in your presence, you want black folk to get over slavery and police brutality, and the original Americans (the Indians) to get over the Redskins name and stealing their land, but let someone tell you a flag, statue, or other needs to go down and your panties are all in bunch.

Let clear something up no one is telling you in your home you can’t celebrate what you like long as you don’t hurt nobody history and heritage are tags you can no longer hide behind the civil war was fought and lost by the confederacy. The flag flown at those sporting events you watch is the “American”. The one sewn into the uniforms of our soldiers also the “American”. Represented in the world for this country also the “American” flag and the bald Eagle. So don’t talk to anyone about what they need to let go when the actual rest of the country had officially moved on.

This rant started because here in Norther Va there is a debate about changing the name of a school named after a man from the confederacy so let’s say OJ Simpson had erected in the seventies the OJ boarding school for girls, that name still cool today? In in the eighties he renamed the OJ loves Nicole Brown school we good still? You sending your kids off to the Charles Manson dorms? .. Have several seats. -Vonte.

Kathy Went Too far.. So Did Snoop

(before we start please excuse what grammatical errors I may have missed I suffer from dyslexia)

Let me say that I said the same thing about both no question, and believe me I’m part of the Trump is not my president movement or whatever it is, I had even found the snoop video to be kind of funny, satirical as it is (not haha funny if you will but funny) him being a clown, also I loved the SNL sketches of Trump 9 out of 10 where hilarious, but here is why I feel Snoop Dog and Kathy went too far.  Images like those, that depict violence against the sitting president whomever it may be makes us look weak around other parts of the world, I can’t say for sure but I’d assume you wouldn’t find images like this of other countries’ leaders openly accepted (in their counties) pretty sure a couple of leaders would have you put to death. Art wise, freedom of speech wise, even personally, why they felt they wanted to do this I applaud, I know where they stand and I like it.

Here is my problem I’ve seen this story so far on two different media outlets and automatically it’s stated”if this were done to/for Barack Obama how would you feel”? (honestly I expected it) Let’s put this comparison to rest, less the actual beheaded image (that I know of) this has been done to Barack to the then First Lady Michelle and their children, in particular one I will never forget Michelle was compared to an ape. I’ve seen with my own eyes ignorant bumper stickers on truck of people whom I assume have been, are, or have family in the military disrespect Obama while he was in office (it will have the branch of military I’ll tell you ive seen more USMC and then the offensive Obama quote and NRA). He was your Commander In Chief  I just can’t wrap my head around how that works opinions and freedoms as they are maybe it’s something you need to just say around your people you believe feel the same way but shouldnt advertise being he was your Bosses Boss. You want to condemn all depctions of violence against a sitting president, I have no problem with that, but you have no right to compare, I no longer want to hear “if it had been done to Obama”, it has, more frequently and less humanly. The Obama’s were openly compared to animals spoken of as less than human beings and this wasn’t exclusive to private citizens, I’m talking government officials. So forgive me if I am less sensitive that an arrogant New Yorker gets his feelings hurt when it wasn’t to long ago I was reminded how many in this country feel about people of color no matter how much power they have.

Condemn it all but never again Compare.-Vonte

Thank You Dave Chappelle

(before we start please excuse what grammatical errors I may have missed I suffer from dyslexia)

So I like many of you watched the Dave Chappelle specials on Netflix, I got thru the first one I laughed and almost cried. It seemed like for Dave this was like getting back on a bike he’s always seemed to be a great story teller. What I would like to thank him for most was a truth he spoke, a joke about Bill Cosby he built up to it “he rapes but he saves” that was the tag line he spoke about not wanting to believe that a man of his caliber could be a monster (my words not his). 

Before I go to far let explain something I am dyslexic funny enough I learned about this disability from the Cosby Show and truthfully some time later when I was really able to understand it (the condition and the episode), it helped to change my life for the better I used to think I was just set to fail or just never worked hard enough when truth was to do what I have accomplished I worked harder then most Cliff Huxtable helped me see that. I twice stood tall for Bill Cosby, the first time being when he in his old age spoke about black folks blaming people for their struggles but not working to change it, educating themeselves and not pulling up their pants, that moment inspired me to write.  I wrote a book, a book on my life up until my miss-adventures in a school for higher learning and my choice not to continue to beat myself into a plan that without great assistance I didn’t fit into. 

The second time was when the story first broke of Cosby and these accusations heck Beverly Johnson even wafered, and honestly we were talking about was Bill Cosby I mean come on!

Dave vocalized what I couldn’t find the words to say. Dave said “obviously Bill Cosby was a hero to me” and you may not understand what it feels like to think that your hero might have done something so henice.  “Let’s not forget I never met Bill Cosby so I’m not defending him” and he listed off his list of positive accomplishments, he ended that list by saying “and I remember that he partnered with a clinical psychologist to make sure that there was not one negative image of African-Americans on his show” 

That is no small thing, look at what our children are subject to now Real Houswives, Love and Hip Hop, and we as African Americans are not alone in this but all of our popular shows are full of ratchet moments scripted reality with real emotions and fights, a generation that knows more of WorldStar then they do of A Different World, and nor do they care. My world, our world is spiraling to a generation un-phased Chappelle said this also “in your generation it’s like the space shuttle blows up every fucking day, how can you care about anything when you know every goddamn thing, so you just give the fuck up”. It’s so true all of it and that saddened me for a second until this moment in the show I couldn’t express why I fought so hard to believe to accuse the victims that is why it made sense to me at the time. “He rapes but he saves” fucked up ain’t it? That was my struggle, this blog, my biography was inspired by Cosby, in truth I haven’t watched Dr. Huxtable do his thing way before any of this hell I had seen all the episodes all the times they were on TV, I no longer needed to watch, but now more than ever need to believe.. (ah in what he intended with Cosby Show and ADW not in the man). Lastly I would like you to understand why it’s important to have heros why Cliff Huxtable and A Different World must remain no matter what, there are not today many people I can speak of today that I thought off as a hero whom I would still say today,  that could be how dyslexia affects my memory but is more to the point that Cosby was my father when mine was gone and the Huxtable’s my family when after growing up so close had mostly spread out so far away. 

It’s a touchy situation with me now discussing him just know I do not support him, just know why I’m telling Dave Chappelle thank you sir! -Vonte

Look, About this..

(before we start please excuse what grammatical errors I may have missed I suffer from dyslexia)

So “web celebrity” (if you will) Jess Hilarious posted this phot to her social media and raunchy comedian Corey Holcomb fired her up, to be honest if you know anything about Corey Holcomb you wouldn’t expect less or better from him (I’ve paid to see him and like his stuff). The internet went off on Corey and to that I have no comment he’s a grown man he can take it, then Jess fired back and on TMZ Corey said she was corny And further went in saying she’s teaching her son to be a bitch. Yikes, definitely harsh if I felt he needed to be defended I’d say again this is his brand.

So back to this photo I will admit I do not understand the theme, I do not understand why she had to be totally naked. Truth is short of abuse this isn’t mine or anyone’s business.

One comment, why post this on social media? And let’s not if there equate this to breastfeeding in public I have no issue with that children have to eat, name the places a person can sit around butt naked in public? This photo isn’t equal to breastfeeding. Corey brought up (well tried to guess the child’s age) he is definitely not an infant, not even a toddler she is an “internet celeb” and she posted it on social media this photo will be around forever who is to say her son won’t get picked on for it? I just don’t see the point. -Vonte 

Status Update


just wanted to make a few things clear.  (this is no jab at any of my friends)

first there is a FB thing to make the Obama family a temp pic for today, Look I’m not going to do it, While I will say and He is not my president and I am down with all those who feel so I am not going to put any more energy into this nothing against any who asked me to or any who do, no matter may I need to blame Russia or ignorant voters it is what it is, he may not be my President he is The President and if he fails we fail as a country if something happens to him we have his VP to look forward to I don’t see a win.

lastly I don’t care either way that Chrissette Michelle, or Travis Greene are performing nor that Kanye West and Steve Harvey reached out (that’s now or then) as long as they didn’t support his campaign I will let these people be if Steve wants to help Ben Carson’s non qualified ass who knows nothing about Urban anything then maybe somebody needs to and gtfoh that Kanye talked about violence in Chicago he could have done that shit back with W Bush or do something himself in Chicago, be that as it may im just expressing I do not really believe thats what he did nor do I care. Education will be headed by someone who doesn’t believe in it, housing and urban development being lead by an idiot surgeon and the state being headed by someone who loves Putin and is president of Exxon another mighty corporation. Respect to you out there protesting there are citizens im watching on live tv who are Hilary or Bernie supporters on the mall mixed in with others respect to you, Today is the day I say for myself I lost but this will take no more of my energy.

like it or not I’m not looking for comments just clearing the air and to those who know me well enough this is how I dust my shoulders off and move, still have to get up and do me everyday after this just getting started early. To Barrack And Michelle farewell you have been a great inspiration for what I personally believe I needed to see in humanity and blackness if you will since possibly the Cosby show (what it represented not what one did personally) and for that I thank you it has almost been fantasy so today I snap back to reality.

that’s all -Vonte

So Often We Are Let Down


(before we start please excuse what grammatical errors I may have missed I suffer from dyslexia)

Let Me Say Hidden Figures was an amazing and inspiring movie, I do not care your color or cred go see this movie. As an 80’s baby I can tell you space launches were a big deal, so much so they were broadcast live on tv. I had to be all of nine as we gathered around the television at school in 1986 for the launch of the Challenger, all of us dreaming of what space is like. We sat quietly as this shuttle blasted off and shortly there after were confused (or at least I was) when it broke apart and the TV was abruptly turned off, because someone quickly realized that wasn’t normal and they may not have survived, as it turns out that flight had in fact ended in tragedy it was all over the airwaves, so had we not seen it in school we would have heard or saw it later that day. A very sad day in fact the first I could remember from that time of my life where the nation mourned together. It wasn’t until 92′ Launch of the Endeavor shuttle I remember even being excited again about a space launch this may have been because by then I had already forgot about the Challenger tragedy and also because this time going to space was a black woman, Mae Jemison, the first black woman going to space. The school television was brought into class as it was in 86′ and again we sat around in awe as the countdown began you could feel the tension and the excitement in the room, followed by the relief as it made into space successfully.

So I mentioned I felt let down, let me explain. As I watched the movie Hidden Figures a wash of emotions came over me, mostly and more importantly for this post was anger I was so dissapointed that we have come this far and this story is just now being told, and I am not talking about in film maybe this cast of Taraji P. Henson, Octavia Spencer, and Jonelle Monae were what this story needed to be told in film in fact after watching it I am ever more in love in what these three women the actual characters they portray and the actresses themselves have done. The anger comes from never hearing this story before I watched this movie on New Years eve 2016, not one mention in a history book not one fact teller on a musem tour not one conspiracy theory (if you will). you have to understand that going to space and being an astronaunt was what children wanted to be as soon as they heard about space, in a sense shooting for the stars, imagine how african american children would have been inspired after hearing these three womens stories. It turns out that at some point in my life I realized my fear of heights and the astronant dream though cool was not going to be a reality for me, why wasn’t I told about the mathmatition the engineer (beyond locomotives) or a coding supervisor/programmer we sure heard about Amelia Earhart and Rosie the Riverter. I’m so angry I can’t even finish this my mind is racing with possibilities no disrespect to Amelia or the symbol Rosie I just feel… let down.-Vonte



I Just Refuse.

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I refuse to believe that people can be so naive. It has come to a point where it hurts so much that I don’t have the energy to complain anymore.
I watched the full Tomi Lahren interview her arguments spew white privilege so I want to set some things straight. Things got interesting when the conversation turned to BLM and black people protesting,  she feels that Colin Kapernick  is doing things the wrong way taking it our on the flag and the anthem. Trevor Noah then asked her How? How? is he supposed to protest correctly,  as a black man if we march in the streets people say we are thugs if we go out and protest people say it’s a riot and if we kneel that is still not the right, to which she had no answer Tomi was then asked how would she protest? to which she answered, she does not, she will not protest about the country she lives in because she will not allow herself to be “a victim” even though she knows that women only received the right to vote after black people did.

There is still suffrage of woman to this day men in government and in church still think they know what a woman must do, so she won’t let that way her down that is great for her and all others who don’t. We as black people are amongst the few groups of people whom were actually enslaved. Wasn’t my generation? True! Yet history has and continues to glance over, listen I’ve learned more about Lief Erikson and Chris Columbus in history then I did what happened to Africans and Indians in school, we didn’t touch on slavery until the week we had to watch roots after having to read Huckleberry Finn. in school you are lead to believe that the thanksgiving of then was a great feat to bring people together but not told it was an apology for genocide ( I do now believe the holiday is more about family than a minuscule gesture it was then) but as a black person am I a victim? Yes I am. It starts with the education system glossing over accomplishments of people who overcome extreme hardships (and that’s not solely just the black struggle)  maybe mention the people of whom this country was built on the backs of, and those whom were trampled over,  add to that a prison system that in the 13th  amendment is described as a legal form of slavery. It hurts me to mention the fact that many white people want us to just get over it. What hardship have you faced that made you so insensitive to that of anyone not like you? Was it the factory job your grandfather lost or the farm you had to abandon? Because on the other end of the spectrum people died, men women and children were separated from the families, property was taken from their ancestors by force and  humans were sold.

So fuck you, get over it. I promise I will begin to attempt to get over it when those of you who support the confederacy concede to the fact you lost the war so history or not your only flag should be the American, leave that lost battle and all its beliefs to the books in the library. As I sit here and my cursor blinks and on the days my mind races angered at how blind people can be, how intolerant, how naïve know that I am not asking you to jump on the front lines with the struggle of any other people if that’s not what you feel, I only ask that you sympathize, because when you sympathize you show that you acknowledge the suffrage. -Vonte