Freddie Gray

I’m Numb to Police on Black Violence


(before we start please excuse what grammatical errors I may have missed I suffer from dyslexia)

As a black man I am ashamed to say that, I heard the news about Alton Sterling this morning just as most of us did, I didn’t really have a reaction hell it wasn’t until later in the day I actually saw the video. I feel ashamed because I shouldnt be numb to it, I should want to talk about it. Part of me not reacting is maybe I’m tired seeing it, aren’t you? Is it not sad?.. Disappointing?

There is no Police lives matter movement and you know why?  Because there doesn’t need to be, there is no all lives matter movement, because you all don’t truly feel that way, if all live matter than solders of the islamic state, theyre lives matter too. I have said this before and I do again with all due respect police do not fight a war not here in America, police clock in and out like you and me there needs to be some type of anger management daily for police everywhere, and as an officer if you’re not in the mood or right frame of mind then please don’t go to work, but you must stop taking it out on us.

Black Lives matter refers to the unarmed men and women dying at the hands of police. Need I remind you they captured Dylan Roof ( S.C. church shooter), they captured James Holmes (C.O. movie theater shooter) mass murderers captured alive but unarmed Eric Garner was killed, Freddie Gray killed, Alton brown clearly pinned on the ground by two officers killed. Fuck you and Ray Lewis and all other idiots that say black lives need to matter to black people, we aren’t the only people with issues, lives also need to matter to the drug dealer at your children’s school that provides your children with social drugs they overdose on, do not need, and clearly do not understand, to the white supremacy hate groups that even hate white people of a certain religion (so you can be white but can not have another religion) Ray Lewis needs to make a video to his collegaes about domestic violence and arent you alleged to have stabbed some one? This movement is for unarmed black people in police custody dying (not actively shooting or returning fire from police). As of today there are questions about wether or not Alton had a gun, that is fine it will come out either way but in the video it sure wasn’t pointed at anyone it sure wasn’t in his hand in the video he is on the ground two police on top of him when he is shot looks like the second cop was startled unaware and had to move out of the way, that is an execution there is no return of fire or control of the situation on Alton’s side as it seems at the time he was shot. The officer described Michael Brown (Ferguson MO. unarmed  victim as a “gorilla” I believe I heard, I also heard as a child holding onto Hulk Hogan) this is a police officer 6’4 210 lbs and in his vehicle vs an 18yr old man 6’4 292 and most importantly unarmed.

Listen I’m not asking you to care, I almost had no reaction but if you don’t agree there is a problem then I am telling you to shut the fuck up, stay in your world that is fine, just don’t post for help when something happens to someone in your family, I don’t want to hear about your issues so call whom you need to notifiy directly because that like these past situatuions have nothing directly to do with me the differnce though is I see the problem.

lastly let me say… I had no reaction because I am sick of it, I didn’t want to talk about it because it should not occur so often, hell so often in just a year. I was numb to it because I am scared and not noticing it means I can pretend it doesn’t happen. Unfortunately I am constantly reminded that for my skin tone that just isn’t true. So please if for some reason you don’t see it, or just don’t get it, ask someone who does before you speak and if you don’t care at all then stay the fuck out of the discussion. There damn sure deserves to be a movement, and if these men and women dying in police custody weren’t black, if they were your brother, sister, father etc. Turn on Cops, TMZ, or go to YouTube and see people of all colors resisting arrest, some even armed so why are we dying. -Vonte


I Can’t Tell You Which Lie Hurts Worst

freddie gray

(before we start please excuse what grammatical errors I may have missed I suffer from dyslexia)


I’ve tried to stay away from the blog but crazy shit just keeps happening. So this time I need you to tell me why my vote actually matters, and I need you to make your point so that I can understand it. I’m going to talk about a couple of topics,  just bear with me here.

Before I go into my vote let me say this about the third and believed to be the most possible suspect in the Freddie Gray Murder/ sorry death in custody case. When you drop you child off at the bus stop they are at the care of the school district, god forbid let there be an accident. Now Freddie Gray was no child and this was no school, but this man was in police custody, in a police van and so far 3 of the six involved will not face charges.

Okay let me talk about my vote because you tell me it matters, I hear it so often,  as I understand it votes are first rated by what neighborhood, district, city then state you reside.  for instance I lived in the City of Chicago went to a downtown voting station because it was convenient, I worked downtown at this is still in the city of Chicago. Nope couldn’t vote there not my district. I go elsewhere do my diligence and the results come out, not enough people from the district that could evoke a change, do  ( because they anticipate your areas majority vote, unless there is a huge change your state votes the way it always did  and only gets a certain amount of delegates). So say a person like Trump becomes the nominee. Okay this I can get over, maybe more people just turned out to vote, then you hear about Super delegates, (sounds straight out of a comic book) lets say someone had those locked in before the campaign even began, so fight as you may other candidates this person pretty much won. Wait finally tell me why one of the leading candidates at the time, leading in all poles for that side came out and said out of their own mouth “the system is corrupt” you are in the lead sir what problems might there be?


Aright so screw all of that right? Lets talk gun control, the house democrats hosted a sit in (let me hold back my excitement for them making a difference) this sit-in was just to get a vote not guaranteeing either side of the argument just a conversation about, at best and the rest of the house walked out and started vacation. There may never be a change to our gun laws because of our 2nd amendment rights and what people believe, but why are citizens allowed to be more heavily armed than the average beat cop who is supposed to protect our streets? What was the old folks sit-in supposed to accomplish? These fools even turned off the cameras, sounds like game over to me.

So let me get this straight unless I and many others like me move to a state where there aren’t enough of me my vote doesn’t really matter for the presidential races, then you tell me change who represents my state “they are what matters” well those people can’t even get all their other co workers to come in to work for a vote, and until they are caught red-handed who keeps them honest these folks get contributions and gifts (add that and their earnings are similar to that of athlete salaries) all while in office, who’s to say it’s not for a favor later on? And where the hell do I vote for the super delegates?. Lastly when the hell did church and state become the same? and who’s church are we following?  So I ask you to explain to me in a way I can understand (because I am dyslexic) how my vote matters? Mind you I have to break everything down to store it in my head, it has to make sense for me and right now I don’t even understand how it makes sense to you.

So which lie is worst that my vote matters? or that there is equal justice? -Vonte