police violence

I’m Numb to Police on Black Violence


(before we start please excuse what grammatical errors I may have missed I suffer from dyslexia)

As a black man I am ashamed to say that, I heard the news about Alton Sterling this morning just as most of us did, I didn’t really have a reaction hell it wasn’t until later in the day I actually saw the video. I feel ashamed because I shouldnt be numb to it, I should want to talk about it. Part of me not reacting is maybe I’m tired seeing it, aren’t you? Is it not sad?.. Disappointing?

There is no Police lives matter movement and you know why?  Because there doesn’t need to be, there is no all lives matter movement, because you all don’t truly feel that way, if all live matter than solders of the islamic state, theyre lives matter too. I have said this before and I do again with all due respect police do not fight a war not here in America, police clock in and out like you and me there needs to be some type of anger management daily for police everywhere, and as an officer if you’re not in the mood or right frame of mind then please don’t go to work, but you must stop taking it out on us.

Black Lives matter refers to the unarmed men and women dying at the hands of police. Need I remind you they captured Dylan Roof ( S.C. church shooter), they captured James Holmes (C.O. movie theater shooter) mass murderers captured alive but unarmed Eric Garner was killed, Freddie Gray killed, Alton brown clearly pinned on the ground by two officers killed. Fuck you and Ray Lewis and all other idiots that say black lives need to matter to black people, we aren’t the only people with issues, lives also need to matter to the drug dealer at your children’s school that provides your children with social drugs they overdose on, do not need, and clearly do not understand, to the white supremacy hate groups that even hate white people of a certain religion (so you can be white but can not have another religion) Ray Lewis needs to make a video to his collegaes about domestic violence and arent you alleged to have stabbed some one? This movement is for unarmed black people in police custody dying (not actively shooting or returning fire from police). As of today there are questions about wether or not Alton had a gun, that is fine it will come out either way but in the video it sure wasn’t pointed at anyone it sure wasn’t in his hand in the video he is on the ground two police on top of him when he is shot looks like the second cop was startled unaware and had to move out of the way, that is an execution there is no return of fire or control of the situation on Alton’s side as it seems at the time he was shot. The officer described Michael Brown (Ferguson MO. unarmed  victim as a “gorilla” I believe I heard, I also heard as a child holding onto Hulk Hogan) this is a police officer 6’4 210 lbs and in his vehicle vs an 18yr old man 6’4 292 and most importantly unarmed.

Listen I’m not asking you to care, I almost had no reaction but if you don’t agree there is a problem then I am telling you to shut the fuck up, stay in your world that is fine, just don’t post for help when something happens to someone in your family, I don’t want to hear about your issues so call whom you need to notifiy directly because that like these past situatuions have nothing directly to do with me the differnce though is I see the problem.

lastly let me say… I had no reaction because I am sick of it, I didn’t want to talk about it because it should not occur so often, hell so often in just a year. I was numb to it because I am scared and not noticing it means I can pretend it doesn’t happen. Unfortunately I am constantly reminded that for my skin tone that just isn’t true. So please if for some reason you don’t see it, or just don’t get it, ask someone who does before you speak and if you don’t care at all then stay the fuck out of the discussion. There damn sure deserves to be a movement, and if these men and women dying in police custody weren’t black, if they were your brother, sister, father etc. Turn on Cops, TMZ, or go to YouTube and see people of all colors resisting arrest, some even armed so why are we dying. -Vonte


I Don’t Want To Talk About The Riots’ 


I don’t want to further glorify the ignorance as the media has, at what point does reporting the news and extended coverage of no new information become glorifying ignorance. I will speak of the protests the people directly affected, the people whom really care about the cause, and I found myself saying I’m sorry to white America but in every culture there are those who want nothing positive, all they care about is themselves and right now. This comes from our decaying schools all over this country, our lack of parenting, weather it be because they are scared that if they whoop they’re children that someone will tell and have those children taken away. Or they just don’t care because they do as much dirt as there child. 

These elections since W. Bush have been run more on fear and religion, fear of religion and other things that only matter to those who need not be represented in government. Our city schools are struggling and we’re fighting over universal health care and inconveniencing insurance companies and doctors, our teachers are stressed, our children out of control they “do it for the gram” (Instagram and Worldstar) yet we argue over who can Marry. We have never been further away from the issues yet no one answers the call for help. Black men, men of all color (non Caucasian) do fear the police it’s just more of us are dying. Yet they can capture and secure the marathon bomber and movie theater shooter I’d even go as far to say that those non blacks who have committed mass muder, chaos and terror, have only died by taking there own life, sounds harsh but think about it. Then think of Micheal Brown, Trayvon Martin, ( by fake cop but got off) Eric Garner, and Freddy Gray. 

So what is there to report? Keep me up on the city leaders and what they say, tell me there is unrest and tell me in detail about the peaceful protests, were guessing numbers on the other stuff at least by the day so what good is it to show that car that has been burning since 4pm and those fights at 430 over and over with no info? Come back to it sum the shit up at the end. Stop spreading fear.

I won’t talk about the riots it’s not news just like I’m sorry Bruce Jenner isn’t news it’s his business that he wants to put in media from a family of media whores.  All we’re doing is paying him more you want me to care about him tell me he’s counseling someone else going thru what he is, then I will stand up for him, otherwise more power to him he’s a story not a headline, he’s not the first ever may not be the last, tell me he is donating 100% of the fiascos proceeds to help others that’s a headline.

I will not pray for Baltimore I will for the family of Freddy Gray those who want riots are beyond prayer and need dispcipline, need better schools,need healthcare, need a real minimum wage yet still have no excuse for ignorance. Let’s get over ourselves (America) and deal with real priorities we are failing our children they are falling our education, and we are failing as parents. -Vonte

I Want You To Understand


I was raised correctly and it’s not an excuse it’s just a difference. Let me first say this post isn’t about any particular situation only brought up by conversations I have had with friends. As black people no as people all of us need to do a few things when raising children, the first being put the fear of god in them (whomever that may be for you, and if you do not believe then let them know their are consequences for actions) this generations runs around with the fear of nothing which brings me to my 2nd point instill in them respect for elders it is not funny your five year old cussing out an adult, I don’t care how upset I may have been I’ve never disrespected an elder (to their face) without fear of what I would have to face at home. (If I had a problem I brought it to my parent or older family member). Lastly the knowledge and respect for self and this is one of the hardest things to teach, sometimes no matter how hard you try this may have to be learned by them on there own, but once achieved becomes a powerful tool that won’t allow you to be involved in to many situations that would diminish your personal character if brought to light.

None of these guarantee I won’t be the next black no ethnic male victim to unnecessary police violence, none of these things make me feel safer in a city, or rural town (translation: anywhere) when police become involved. The only thing it does is lessen the amount of situations when police would even be involved in what I do. I’ve already said in so many word unless it is something I need from them “Fcuk the police” I don’t feel they are qualified to diffuse half of the stuff they are called too, cops show up and interview for the job just like every one of us at one time has, I’ve already said “I don’t do not understand why police aren’t held to stronger non-violent tactics” and I’ll even go as far to say we need to afford police and military more paid time off for mandatory stress relief in the form of time with family and bonding, mentoring activities with people in the community.

So no excuse, just a difference, (again not related to any current situation) because for once I want the parent(s)or guardian(s) of troubled children when interviewed to say “yes my child has gone down the wrong path, yes we both may need help”. With all of America keeping it “100” and nobody afraid of anything I just don’t understand why it’s not always real there are bad people of every nationality in every nation, a few years ago the slogan in the hood was “stop snitching” and in the age of WorldStar, YouTube, and the like where doing nothing but. some of you are posting incriminating videos on your own accounts, snitching on yourselves.

I want people to stop believing ish like what is going on in Fergerson MS, doesn’t happen. I want to know why a man with a knife or not armed at all is shot? Gun to a knife, or fist fight has always been unfair. Police have access to tasers and batons how is it okay not to use them in those situations? I want police and government officials, hell people with money (or backed by the NRA) not to be awarded with the liberty of being above the law when the circumstances make no common sense. George Zimmerman stalked a young man, attempted to subdue him with no proper cause and when he couldn’t gain control the grown man twice his size shot Treyvon Martin and got off. If you put that same story man vs woman the assault could have been considered a rape or attempt of (think of it like that if you weren’t sympathetic to the Martin family) and George isn’t even a cop.

The world we live is plagued by the greed of human nature, teach your own to think wisely and for themselves, teach them to love, to care for yet never be stepped on. Teach them early. -Vonte